Thinspo Journal

Some of these pictures have a glare >_< Also, I took these quotes from either myself or girls that I follow on Tumblr and Twitter. You might see your quote on here :) sorry that your name/URL isn't by it.

Black sketch book aka Thinspo Journal. I don't know what I want to put on the cover yet.

"I've always known it was laughable to wash down several slices of deliciously fattening pizza with a diet soda."

"Pretty Perfect"

"Sometimes I eat something bad because I don't want "IT" to control me. So I eat to rebel against it. But the truth is I want "IT" to control me because then I'll be skinny." 

     The words in BOLD are the magazine cut-outs. The magazine cut-outs say the quote that's written below.

     "I eat bad I want control. I rebel against the truth I want control I'll be skinny."

"As long as you are doing something because you love it, it can never be the wrong choice."

"Welcome to my life, I run on coffee and live to be model thin." 

(I think SkinnySweetpea said this) 

"I do it for fashion. I want to be skinny. I will not stop." 

"She lives with great discipline. She has a passion for perfection."

Life

Happy (late) Holidays!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas. It was nice seeing family as well as a bit stressful. I get stressed out whenever I'm around a lot of people for a long time. Plus things in my family move slowly. On Christmas Eve it took us about 3 hours to open presents and on Christmas Day it took about 90 minutes, not as bad. Christmas will always be my favorite holiday though :)

This will probably be my last post from 2010! Yay! Thank goodness 2010 is almost over. It was a shitty year for my family. My dad has been out of work for awhile now and on top of all that, just about ever major appliance broke... the TV, the microwave, the water heater, the furnace and the oven. Everything has been replaced or fixed but it was still a pain. Also, my grandpa died in October which is still very difficult for my family.

The day after Christmas, I went to my cousin's house to watch her dog while she was away for the night. On Monday I found out that my boyfriend of 4 1/2 years wanted to break up with me :( and then on Wednesday I found out I got laid off from my "perfect" job. I was so sad. Plus, I found out about the job right before I went into my boyfriend's apartment. Not the best timing. I had to take a couple of minutes to compose myself so I wouldn't be a mess when I walked in to talk to my boyfriend.

I wanted to play the role of "hurt but doesn't show it" when I walked into see him. I let out a lot of emotion when we talked previously on the phone and when I saw him I wanted to remain calm so I could think straight. We had a couple of things to sort out and I wanted to make sure everything got handled in the way it should be handled.

I've been busy and stressed out lately. I'm hoping that 2011 will bring me a new job that I love just as much as my other one, along with a new body and being debt free. Hopefully 2011 will be a good year.

*please be a good year*

I hope everyone has a good and safe New Years Eve!

Personal Photos of Me

I'm thinking about posting personal photos of myself on here such as the outfits I wear etc. I really want this blog to be more personal to me and it would be nice to be able to look back on it from a year from now. If I decided to do this, it will be very difficult for me seeing as privacy is very important to me also because I'm not 100% comfortable being in front of a camera. However, I think it would make me step outside of the box and challenge me.

Winter Wonderland

Today I woke up to the first snowfall of December. I took a minute to breathe in the cool fresh air, I could almost taste winter. The sky was colorless, in fact to most, it looked quite bleak, however to me, it was beautiful. I was taken into a black and white world today, white sky, white ground, white tress and the black pavement. It was cold but beautiful. This is why I love Winter. It's silent on days like these and I promise, you can almost hear the snow flakes falling from the sky and landing gracefully into the palm of your hand. Perfect snowflakes in the shape of stars.